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Monday, April 28, 2003

Manor House started tonight on PBS. It's amazing to see the drastic change in people once they find out that they're going to be rich rich rich, live in a splended house & have servants for three months. It only took the "Lord of the Manor" a day to turn into a seemingly charming guy to a complete Edwardian snob. The only person I have faith that will turn out ok from her three months as a "Lady" is the sister of the lady of the house. She's truly uncomfortable by the fact that people are waiting on her hand & foot. The little kid who's is probably going to have the hardest time adjusting once the three month stint is up. I'm sure I'm not making any sense to those who haven't seen it. But do, it's a great study in sociology/psychology/anthropology. Plus it's narrated by Derrick Jacobi, how can you go wrong?

The Manor House site has a snob-o-meter. I'm 67% snob, I guess because I hate Wal-Mart (evil empire that treats its employees like shit) and like brie makes me snobby.

Thank God for small miracles. The network went back up around 5pm today. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to take another day of having to go to campus to get things done in Oracle and on the internet in general. It is not fun realizing that you forgot something in your office 5 blocks away and having to put it off until the next time you were back on campus. I wonder how long it'll stay up....

Sunday, April 27, 2003

I think I'm having a harder time dealing with the fact that the boy just up out of the blue stoped calling. I had such a good feeling about him & blammo, nothing. And usually I'm really good at telling if it's going to work or not & I really thought it was going to work out.

Dan & Stacy had a slumber party & of the group of friends there (and in our group in general), I was the only singleton. 90% of the time I don't feel like a fifth wheel and no one said or did anything for me to feel like a complete loser for not having a significant other, but it still can be hard. The Marthas have this amazing relationship, Matt & his new man T are so cute, and Dan & Stacy have this great marriage. It's that 10% of the time where I just want to jump off a bridge. I know no relationship is perfect, but when your closest friends in the whole world have attained the one thing you want most & was just in reach of being attained & then vanishes without an explination, it's really really hard. No matter how much they tell me they love me just the way I am and how great I am and that I'm special no matter what, the feeling's still there. Their friendships mean the world to me & I can't imagine them not in my life, but I long for the connections they're so lucky to have found.

Friday, April 25, 2003

God bless the person/people who invented Lexis Nexis. I've been able to find more of what I need for my paper there than in any of the 10 books I took out from the library. I'm hoping to actually start writing tomorrow morning. I'm hoping to have it done by sunday night. AND this is a bonus, I thought it had to be 15 pages minimum, but the minimum's only 10, thank my lucky stars!!! Alrighy, back to Lexis Nexis..... then off to see Jim's Big Ego with Dan in a few hours.

Thursday, April 24, 2003

So all the hulabaloo surrounding the Dixie Chicks' Natalie Maines remarks agains George Bush and his policies are making news again. I think the actions by the people who disagreed with what she said are completely asinine and immature. No matter how you felt about the situation in Iraq if we cannot express our discontent with the policies of our government without fear of retribution puts a black mark on our democracy. An open and honest dialogue about how we feel about issues are an important and fundamental need for our society. And the fact that the current administration refuses to take those of us opposed with his policies seriously and calls us a "focus group" (obvioulsy he doesn't know what a focus group really is) shows that he does not care about any agenda but his own. And no, just because I'm against the war doesn't mean I'm against the troops. They're two different arguements, so don't even try to make it into one.
The network's still down. The latest is that it could take up to three weeks to get it back up. Oh joy of joys. We've been informed that we can go to campus and access email & files if we need to, but I don't need those things! I need access to Oracle & since it's web based, I'm shit out of luck.

I'm home today. I requested today & tomorrow off to work on my final paper for my Critical Methods class before the network fiasco. Since my paper's due a week from today one would think that I'd be working dilligently on it. Not me. I've been slacking all day, I think I've read two articles in LexisNexis. I even got up early to work on it. And it's not like I have saturday & sunday to work on it. I've a couple things going on so I have to get a big chunk of it done today. I'm such a procrastinator.....

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Lots and lots of stuff going on.

The server was down at the office today, for the whole day and the ISS people don't know when it's going to be back up. It made for an interesting day, no internet, no email, no access to personal drives on our computers. For those who's research work is all on their drives it made for a very quiet day. Lots of staff members hanging out in each other's offices catching up on our non-work lives. But for those of us who've been procrastinating on the huge stack of paperwork on our desk, ME, it was an extremely productive day. It just felt really weird not being able to read the NYTimes or the Independent online or not being able to check email. We might be back online tomorrow... or not. I hope we're up, there's a ton of stuff I need to print out and I can't do so since what I need to print is web based. I'm old enough to remember the days before regualr access to a computer one would think I wouldn't be thrown for a loop as much as I am, but I guess I've gotten spoiled.

The boy never called over the weekend like he said he was. So much for getting together. So much for giving it a chance. I'm too old for this shit. I'm movin' on...

Poor Martha, her grandfather passed away. I can only imagine what she's going through. My gramma passed away a little over a month ago and it's soooo damn hard. No matter how much you know, or hope you know, that they're in a better place, where ever that may be, it sucks. Many many good thoughts and prayers to her & her family.

Friday, April 18, 2003

Ah yes, it's nice to see that the university I attend and work at, is trying to take over the world. I don't know if they'll ever be able to do it, but they're sure trying. It wasn't enough that the University has tried everything they could to take over the neighborhood surrounding the campus, they now have to go across the river into Virginia where there are already housing issues for the people who live there! Lovely. If the admissions office didn't accept everyone and their brother who applies there wouldn't these housing issues.

Thursday, April 17, 2003

I HATE HATE MY COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just wrote up this HUGE entry & when I went to post it, the whole damn thing vanished and now I have to start from scratch. I am really really annoyed.


Remember the scene in Dune when Paul had to stick his hand in a box and his maternal grandmother (at least I think it was his maternal grandmother) told him that he couldn't take his hand out of the box until she told him to under pain of death? And he knew something painful was going to happen but he wasn't sure how long it was going to last, he only knew that it was going to hurt a lot?? That's how I feel with the impending end of the semester. The next couple weeks are going to be painful, but I don't know how painful, but painful none the less. I have to keep reminding myself to be grounded in the here and now and do what I have to do and have faith that everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

I'm having boy issues. Big suprise. I met this guy through a dating/matching service thing-y and we hung out a few times. The last time we hung out I told him that I liked him in the kissing sort of way (he met me at a work happy hour & I was a bit tipsy). He said he couldn't understand how I could like him in that sort of way so soon. How do you answer that? You can't explain it, you just know. Because I hate playing games and wanted to be honest with him I also told him about my bisexuality. Which I think really threw him for a loop. He told me that he really needed to think about all the stuff I told him. Which usually means "I'm never going to call you again." I hadn't heard from him in five days, so I had written of the situation. Well he called last night, which I didn't expect at all and he wants to get together sometime this weekend. I was so perplexed when I got off the phone. Very confused, considering the decision I made earlier in the day. The thing is I really like him. A lot. So I'm going to give the situation a chance and see what happens. I have to remind myself that he is not any of the lunatics I've dated in the past and not compare him to anyone/situation that has happened in the past.

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

Happy Wednesday! What a beautiful day!! Oh if I only my office had a window to the outside world!!! I shouldn't complain, at least I have an office. It's SO nice outside. I would much rather be outside wandering around The Mall and playing hookie/tourist than being at work. I promised myself that I wouldn't put in a 10 hour day like I did yesterday so I can enjoy the weather after work before starting the reading that's due tomorrow for my Critical Methods class.

You can tell that people are happy that spring has finally arrived. This morning, my bus driver actually asked me how I was! He's been my bus driver a zillion times and I could never get him to say more than a *grunt* to me. So it's nice to see that the weather is bringing out the nicer side in people.

Keep your fingers crossed that I'll get a new computer at work. The one I currently have is a piece de merde and keeps freezing on me or my connection cuts out when I'm listening to BBC Radio 2 !! GRRRRRR

I'm feeling pretty confident about my Astronomy exam. After my little bout of procrastination last night, I put my nose to the grindstone & got major studying done.

If you're into Cultural Studies you might want to check this out.

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Procrastination is the name of the game. I have a HUGE Astronomy exam tomorrow afternoon & instead of studying what am I doing? That's right updating my blog. I was playing with my NEW cell phone earlier. I think the beautiful weather DC's finally getting is impairing my concentration.

I just found out that my friend Matt is quitting smoking! WHOOOHOOOO!!!! If I could only not smoke when I'm boozing it up with my friends! But since Matt's quitting, it'll help me stop from smoking when I'm all schmammered, since I'm always bummin' them off of him.

*sigh* I guess I should go back to studying if I actually want to pass the exam.

'til the next time...
Do you ever notice that it's when you're lying in bed that some of your most creative & funny thoughts come into being? Then once morning comes you can't remember them for squat even though you thought you would? That would be me. I am a dork. But that's ok, I've embraced my inner dorkness.

MY CELL PHONE CAME IN!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it's taken me this long to get one, considering I like to think that I'm up to date on the tech scene. Well as up to date as I can be on my pathetic salary.

I just found out the dates for Gay Pride Weekend! You can check out the link here I am so excited! Wandering around DC with all the cute gay boys & cute dykes. I wonder if the Radical Fairies are going to do anything to counter the super comericialization that's Pride weekend.

Well I should get some work done, since I spent most of the morning at class. If anything new pops up I'll let ya know.

Monday, April 14, 2003

Ok, so I thought I'd get with the grove & start a blog. Like the title says, I might not post everyday. With working full time going to school almost full time, I might not have time or my brain will be so full at the end of the day that I just might forget. But! When an exciting thing happens don't fret! I will let you all know the excitement.