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Rants, ramblings about my life, work, politics, current events and my obsessions with yarn, knitting, and good music...

Monday, January 31, 2005

Still Trying to Wake Up

Spent a wonderful weekend and Chez Dan & Stacy, celebrating Dan's birthday & my graduation.

Words can not discribe how much fun it was. Patrick & Bernice came in for the celebration as well.

Friday night we chilled out and ate homemade pizza, drank & talked.

Saturday was a haircutting day. Stacy, Dan & I all got our hair cut by Bernice. Mine's the most drastic change, I think Bernice cut at least 6 inches off. It's a really cute cut but unfortunately I do not have a photo because I'm a moron & forgot to bring my camera w/me.

Saturday night we played Cranium, which I've decided is the most fun game EVER. I do not think I've ever seen a group of people laugh so hard as we did. I'm sure the copious amounts of alcohol that we imbibed had nothing to do with our silliness.

Sunday was very chill, many of us recovering from the night before. Stacy, Niels & I watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, which I had not seen before. I was quite suprised how good it was, but so very dark. I don't think if I were 7 or 8 years old I'd be nightmare free afterwards.

We were all very sad to see the weekend come to an end and have to say good bye to such good friends.

I'm quite sleepy today, I think I'm still recovering from the sleep deprivation but it's so worth it.

I hope you all have a wonderful Monday.

Friday, January 28, 2005

Hair Like Jesus Wore It

I am getting my hair cut at some point this weekend. My loverly friend Bernice is going to cut it for me!!

This will be my first haircut in almost 10 months. I know, I know it should get cut more often than once a year, but I'd rather buy yarn than spend the money on a haircut.

Bye bye long hair!!

Helloooooooo short hair!!

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Rampage

I wonder if progressive Virginians realize how backwards and homophobic their state is.

Virginia State Laws

Makes me wonder why I still live there.

Education & Hatred

Have I mentioned how much I hate the Bush Administration??

Seriously. Hate. It.

I'm sick and tired of various apects of it trying to push its agenda of hatred and intolerance.

Minority communities are not going away. We have become an extremely diverse country. And if the Adminstration is saying to foreign nations that we will help them promote democracy and tolerance in their country, then this promotion should in our own backyard.

This is why I'm so mad...(amongt other things)

PBS's 'Buster' Gets An Education

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

I *heart* Gay People

I just took the Sexuality IAT over at the Implicit Association Test site.

And guess what?

I have a preference for gay people over straight people.

SHOCKER.

Seriously, is anyone suprised by this??

If you do not know of, or understand my love for the gay community, you:

a) don't know me very well
b) missed the post of how my dream job is to work w/the LGBT community
c) didn't pay attention when I talk about my gay ex-husband Mike (ok we were never married but I would refer to him as my gay husband, and after he bought me a beautiful sapphire ring for my 25th birthday it was hard not to refer to him as such)
d) never really read my blog to begin with

I Had This Dream

where I relished the fray and the screaming filled my head all day. It was as though I'd be spit here. Settled in into the pocket into the pocket of a lighthouse of some rocky socket off the coast of France, dear ...

oh wait that's a Tragically Hip song not my dream.

I did have a dream last night that was so vivid that I couldn't tell it was a dream.

Stacy, Niels & I were driving up the humungo hill to Dan's Mom's house. The ruts created by the wheels of cars were so deep that there was no way that we could drive on the path (it's a dirt/gravel driveway). Stacy knew of a secret way we could go to avoid the horridness that was the driveway. The only thing is that the secret way was really close to the edge (more so than the driveway) and it was hard to see if you were going to go over the edge or stay on the path when you rounded a corner.

We finally get to the top of the hill after a very nervewracking experience where I felt like I was going to plunge to my death any second. As I get out of the car I switch my glasses to my sunglasses (yes, I have perscrip sunglasses), and put my glasses in the sunglass case. As I close the case my glasses some how get caught and the snapping motion of the case breaks my glasses. Not just the frames, but the left lens. I said something to the effect of "I'm screwed." There was no possible way I would be able to spend the whole weekend at Swampstock with just my sunglasses and I didn't have the $300 to get a new pair and we were in the middle of nowhere. What the fuck was I going to do?

Amazingly enough, someone had superglue and I tried supergluing the lens and the frame back together. (I don't use my left eye anyways so it's not like it'd be a HUGE inconvenience if there were cracks.) I was working on gluing everything back together when my friend Bernice commented that it was so amazing that I was able to put it back together so well.

When I woke up I checked out my dream dictionary and it said that glasses in dreams are an aid to seeing things clearly, both literally and metaphorically.

With all the shit that's been going on at work, it all makes perfect sense to me.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Locker Combination

I'm having one of those days where I cannot remember any combination of various numbers I use multiple times a day.

It's bringing back flashbacks to high school where I would stand in front of my locker and not remember my combination, even though I had just used it.

argh

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Biased?

Today's cover of the Washington Post Magazine was intitled The Bias Test. The article was an extremely interesting look into prejudices in American society. And how that even though people may not think they have biases whether it be racial, gender or weight, they really do.

The article went on to say that of the people who have taken the online test those who consider themselves more conservative on the political specturm tend to be more biased against minorities.

I'm not doing the article justice. Go read it. You might have to create a login at the Washington Post website, but it's free and it's worth it.

Then go take the Implicit Association Test. You maybe really suprised at your results.

Baby it's Cold Outside

So cold. So very very cold.

I can't keep my apartment warm. The heat's set at 70 (I normally keep it at 64) but because the windows leak like you wouldn't believe, all the heat the radiators produce hasn't been able to warm things up.

brrrrr

Off to make a cup of coffee, hopefully that will warm me up.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Belated Birthday

Because I wasn't home last night I was unable to give my sister her deserved Happy Birthday shoutout.

Happy Birthday B!! I hope this year brings you nothing but good things.

Thanks for introducing me to Peter Gabriel, Bruce Cockburn, dream interpretation and Carl Jung. Thanks for also breaking Mom & Dad in with your left leaning politics. And for making sure that those whose voices often are ignored a chance to be heard. You are more of an insipiration to me than you'll ever know.

Lots of love to you.

Let it Snow

I feel like I'm back in Buffalo, it's snowing so much!!!

I hung out with Niels last night & stayed at his place. We had lunch with our friend Matt V. and I headed back to Falls Church around 1pm. It's a good thing I left when I did. When I came out of the tunnel, on the metro, after the Ballston stop, it was snowing pretty badly. I had to wait for the bus a bit longer than usual, but that's to be expected in this weather.

I just put a load of laundry in. Once that's done I'm going to cuddle up with the cats, drink some tea and read Entertainment Weekly and The Economist.

A perfect relaxing saturday.

How is your day going?

Friday, January 21, 2005

That Boring?

My readership had greatly diminished?

Am I that boring? (Mike you're not allowed to answer.)

I realize my posts haven't been the most exciting lately; but come on!!!

Is it because I've graduated? And only have two things to complain about now (the Bush Administration & my job)?

How could it be that I've lost my spark so much that my readers have run away??

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Yahoo

Yahoo is down.

I'm not amused.

I'm grumpy & depressed, I'm sure the oversaturation of the Inaguration hasn't helped.

bah.

I'm going to watch the last 10 minutes of The O.C., maybe that will help cheer me up.

Dark Days Ahead...

Ugh.

I tried to watch some of Dubya's speech today, and fluctuated between laughing and being disgusted.

I rolled my eyes when he tried being like JFK, I was waiting for Dubya to bust out with "Ask not what your country can do for you..."

Puuuleeezzzeeee... I would like to know what good things Dubya's done for the less fortunate. From what I remember from the these past four years, social justice was far from his agenda.

I'm also still pissed off that the Federal Government refuses to reimburse D.C. government the almost $20 million for the security costs.

I swear if I didn't love this country (yes, liberals love this country no matter what the far right says), I would leave. But I've to stay to fight the fucktards like Dubya.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Hating. It.

I'm hating Blogger right now. I wrote a post & went to publish it & it vanished. grrr

Hating work today. And jerk boss isn't even here, so that just makes it even more unfair. Stoopid researchers getting on my nerves.

The job search is frustrating. I'm either way over qualified, or way under qualified for the positions I've been looking at.

See! I know when I'm not qualified to do a job.

I had something else to say, but I forgot. I'm sure it was something to the effect that I hope a snow storm breaks out tomorrow during the Inaguration...


Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Joyful Girl

Well most of the time anyways. Today I'm tired and cold. The yummy Indian food I had for lunch aided in the warmth, but not the sleepiness.

It's cold out.

I even wore a winter coat it's that cold.

Those of you who know me, know how much I hate coats.

Hate them.

They're bulky, make movement difficult, and take up too much room on the metro.

Welcome to winter.

Fascist Architecture

For my new readers, I do write about more than my hatred of the Bush Administration, I really do, but this article just got me so mad...

US 'making secret plans to attack sites in Iran'
By Rupert Cornwell in Washington
18 January 2005


The Pentagon has been conducting secret reconnaissance of potential target sites inside Iran, a magazine claimed yesterday, reigniting the debate here over whether the US should take military action to destroy Tehran's suspected nuclear weapons programme.

The report in The New Yorker, by Seymour Hersh, the journalist who uncovered the Abu Ghraib prison scandal, paints a picture of a rampant Pentagon that under the Defence Secretary, Donald Rumsfeld, is steadily gaining complete control of covert operations.

According to Mr Hersh, President George Bush has authorised commando and special forces units to take action against terrorist targets in "as many as 10" countries in the Middle East and south Asia. But the top strategic target is Iran, say unidentified officials interviewed for the article. Both US and European experts believe that the regime in Tehran is only a few years from acquiring a nuclear weapon and a delivery system, under development at "three dozen or more" sites scattered across the country.

The reconnaissance missions are said to have been under way "at least since last summer", to identify targets that could be hit either by air strikes or commando raids on the ground. "It's not 'if' we're going to do anything against Iran," one former high-level intelligence official is quoted as saying. "They're doing it."

If the report is correct, the Pentagon is on the verge of triumph in its long struggle with a discredited CIA for control of most covert operations. It now appears that the CIA's paramilitary arm will be placed under Mr Rumsfeld's control. Its operations would be reclassified as steps to "prepare the battlefield" in the continuing war on terror. The Pentagon would thus not be required to inform Congress of such activities - in contrast to the CIA, which has to keep the House and Senate broadly abreast of its activities.

There was no immediate comment from the Pentagon on the claims. But Dan Bartlett, Mr Bush's communications director, told CNN that the New Yorker report was "riddled with inaccuracies", though he did not deny it outright.

The administration was committed to negotiations over Iran, Mr Bartlett said. However, he added, "no President at any juncture in history has ever taken military options off the table" - implicit confirmation that the Pentagon at the very least has contingency plans for military action.

The issue is sure to feature during the confirmation hearing of Condoleezza Rice, at which the Secretary of State-designate will be grilled on the administration's second-term plans for Iran and North Korea, the other member of the "axis of evil" identified by Mr Bush in his 2002 State of the Union address. Her answers during the two-day session which begins this morning should throw more light on where she stands in the tug of war between moderates and neo-conservative hardliners over US foreign policy.

As national security adviser during the first Bush term, Ms Rice mostly steered a middle course between the two factions. But if the New Yorker report is only half right, there seems little doubt that, like her predecessor Colin Powell, she will soon be embroiled in turf fights with Mr Rumsfeld - usually allied with Dick Cheney, the Vice-President.

With some misgiving, the Bush administration has gone along with a Europeaninitiative to strike a deal with Tehran, whereby the latter would abandon its nuclear ambitions in return for aid from the European Union.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Happy Birthday

I have to give a shout out to my oldest brother J; he's the dad of my most awesomest neice & nephews.

Today's his 36th birthday.

I love you J.

Thanks for always being there to help me with math homework through out the years and for offering to beat up a boy who broke my heart when I was a senior in high school.

But your politics still suck & I will never understand how you voted for Bush.

Love,
Caren

Unless it Was Champagne With You

Sorry I've been away.

Niels came back to town friday night & he spent the weekend at my place. So, we did romantic things, like going grocery shopping, grabing a bite to eat, play Red Faction II, or watching The Tick on DVD.

Speaking of The Tick, I don't understand how that show never took off; it was a farking riot! I've just chalked it up to the fact that the American population is just too stupid to watch good television.

Saturday night our friends Matt & Jerry came over. We watched a German film called Good Bye, Lenin, which was very good. Niels commented that even when German films have a happy ending they're still depressing, which to hear him say is quite funny. But, I guess you had to be there.

It was a very good, low key weekend. I just wish it hadn't gone so fast.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Anniversary

Happy 38th Anniversary Mom & Dad.

Someday I hope to have a marriage as long lasting and love filled as yours.

Here's to many many more years.

Love you lots & lots.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Past

Can someone explain to me why it is that out of the blue, after many years, guys from my past have, in one way or another, ventured back into my life?

Why now?

Seriously, what the fuck?


Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Interesting...

I think this is pretty accurate.

ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.
Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs)

Three Things

Brian requested that I do the following and because I am a nice person, plus secretly I love these things, I will do it.

Three Things

Three Names You Go By:
Caren
Miss Mita
my last name

Three Screen Names You Have:
Miss Mita
calaterre
cmcalamita

Three Things You Like About Yourself:
My hands
My lips
My phone voice

Three Things You Dislike About Yourself:
My Self Image
That I cry when I get mad
That I'm bad with money

Three Parts of Your Heritage:
Sicilian
Polish
Lithuanian

Three Things That Scare You:
Losing my friends
Dying
The Bush Administration

Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
A cup of coffee
Reading Blogs
Knitting

Three Things You're Wearing Right Now:
Blue yoga pants
Long sleeved green t-shirt
Beige knickers

Three of Your Favorite Bands/Artists:
R.E.M.
Bruce Cockburn
Ani DiFranco

Three of Your Favorite Songs at Present:
Final Straw - R.E.M.
All the Ways I Want You - Bruce Cockburn
Leaving New York - R.E.M.

Three New Things You Want to Try in the Next 12 Months:
Can't even come up with one right now

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (Love is Given):
Trust
Compassion
Really good sex

Two Truths and a Lie:
I've slept with women
I don't have body art (tattoos)
I cheated in school

Three Physical Things in a Love Interest That Appeal to Me:
Hands
Eyes
Smile

Three Things You Just Can't Do:
Skateboard
Ice Skate
Blow my nose only using one hand

Three of Your Favorite Hobbies:
Reading
Walking
Listening to Music

Three Things You Want to Do Badly Right Now:
Cuddle
Have a really good makeout session
Have sex

Three Careers Your Considering:
Grants Management
Teacher
Outreach Coordinator

Three Places You Want to Go on Vacation:
London, England (not Ontario)
Vancouver, BC
India

Three Kids Names:
Emma
Abigail
Claire

Three Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
Travel the world
Get my Ph.D
Have a job I love

Three People Who Have to Take This Quiz Now:
Stacy
Martha
Karen
Ads

I've caved in. I joined Google's Ad Sense to create a bit of revenue.

I also decided that I will donate one week's earnings to charity, I'm hoping it works out to 25% of revenue.

12 weeks out of the year = 12 charities.

I've a quite a few I really like so I'll be rotating them. I'll post a list with the newxt few days of which 12 along with a link to their site, if they have one, will get money.

So please, help me, and help me to help others.

Happiness is...

My Wegmans Shoppers Club card coming in.


It All Comes Down to You

I've this unfortunate personality quirk that I have worked really hard to minimize, not get rid of because sometimes it's a good thing. Beforwarned, the following post makes me seem really insane.

I often become fixed a particular thing and become slightly obsessed about it. Sometimes it's a good thing, like writing letters to my Congresspeople about a particular issue, harping about something the Bush Adminstrationg did & reading up about it & telling EVERYONE I know the horrendous thing that is going on, knitting, Red Faction. Sometimes it's a band (*cough* R.E.M *cough*), or a band member (*cough* Mike Mills *cough cough*), and sometimes it's a blog.

I'm currently fixated on a blog. I'm also really intrigued by the person who writes it. I go to this person's site multiple times a day to see if it has been updated. I think I may even have a blog crush on this person. (This crush in no way diminishes my feelings for Niels.)

I truly understand that this sort of behavior is not the most healthy. But we all have our personality quirks and if we're really lucky friends who tell us when we need take a step back from a situation.

So, welcome to the insanity that is in my head.

Letter

I sent the following letter to the Blogger people this morning; hopefully I'll get something more than an automated response from them.

Dear Blogger,
I'd like to make a recommendation regarding your request to know the gender of your users.

I'm sure you've realized by now that your clients are a very diverse bunch of people. And in this diversity there will be people who do not fall within the traditional notion of male or female gender identity. I would like to suggest that you add selections to reflect the diversity of gender identity, such as adding the following choices: "transgender", "transsexual" and "intersexed".

I look forward to hearing from you.

Sincerely,
Caren M. C...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

I'm Movin' On...

I realize that some of my readers may have found my previous post quite sudden and unexpected. And in a way, I think I'm suprised too. So I guess I should fill you in on what has transpired the past 2 days at the office.

But first let me give you some background information.

Over the weekend I went into the University's web information system. This link allows students to regsiter for classes, look at grades, and look at balances on their accounts, for employees, it allows us to look at our pay history, W-9s, withholdings, and other fun stuff.

On Saturday I logged in to see if my payroll for this friday's check was up so I could figure out what to pay on bills, have for fun expenses, etc. I noticed my check was a tiny bit bigger than the previous, and after doing calculations, I figured it was 2% bigger. Meaning my raise had gone through.

Yup a 2% raise.

I was quite upset over it, because in the conversations I had with my boss over the past two years I was told that I would get a substantial increase in pay once I had finished my degree.

On Monday I went into his office and asked if we could talk, and if I could be frank in what I had to ask. I calmly and politely asked him why I had only gotten a 2% raise. His defenses shot up and he started yelling (not yelling AT me, but yelling) that because of all the considerations I was given to be able to finish my degree that he & the Chair of the department believed that it was a very generous raise. He went on to say that I was not qualified to do my job and that I was never around to do my job.

I was already nervous about talking to him, and when I'm nervous I tend to cry easily, which I hate hate hate. So when I was told I wasn't qualified to do my job I becan to cry and try to tell him that I have all this experience. To which he replied that what I got my degree in (English) has nothing to do with what I was doing. I was so stunned by all of this that I couldn't formulate a decent retort.

I asked what the point was, then, in me finishing my degree, because now I felt like it was all for nothing and that I was being slapped in the face for finishing. He replied saying that me finishing was a personal goal and that was admirable and reiterated that it still has nothing to do with my job.

He also informed me that the cap on raises was 3% for everyone.

I had also told him that had I been sat down prior to today (monday) and had been told that I was not getting a raise for x, y and z reasons that I would have handled it better. That I would have understood. He apologized for that and said I was right to say that it wasn't handled well.

So, when it was all over, I felt that things were fine.

Then the delayed reaction to what was said kicked in and I was furious.

Two years ago a coworker of mine had gotten a huge raise because she was 3 classes away from finishing her degree andI was informed by him, that when I finished, I would get the same. Well she never finished her degree, in fact, she quit in December. When I brought this topic up in my review last month, I was informed that it was not going to happen because her raise was somehow political. I was like "Fine. I totally understand."

But to say that I was never around and that I wasn't qualified to do my job. That put me over the edge. There are so many things I could say about him, but I'm going to refrain. I was always around, if I had class during the day, I didn't take lunch, I would stay late, I would come in on weekends to get things off my desk if I had to, I even skipped classes to do my job, I answered emails when I was home sick, or on VACATION!! I was more qualified to do my job than most people, I have over five years of experience in my position, I am the one people come to regarding the ins and outs of policies, I can recite them in my sleep. Not one person ever complained to me that I wasn't doing my job or wasn't available. And if there were complaints, I didn't know about them because I was never told.

He was also the one who pushed me to finish. He knew that my degree had NOTHING to do with my job. And because it's a B.A., it doesn't have to. If I was getting my Master's it had to pertain to my job. But there's nothing in the University handbook that says my B.A. has to be related to what I do.

Also, the 3% cap on raises: that was a lie.

In a nutshell I was lied to. I think that is what hurts the most in all of this, not the raise, not the promotion, but that I was lied to by someone I really trusted.

So, I'm looking for a new job. I sent my resume to my brother to review and I'm starting the hunt.

I'm sad about all of this, I was really looking forward to spending the next couple years there, and it's all changed, so very suddenly.


Please Don't Take a Picture

Bad Day. Really bad day. Bad two days in fact. I want to crawl into bed and sleep the rest of the week away.

Let's just say, the hunt for a new job is starting tonight.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Me in Honey

So I did it. I made the big switch on my home computer to Mozilla. I have it on my work computer but hardly use it because it's not compatable with Oracle. And since most of my job is spent running reports I use IE or Netscape, both of which are icky.

Yesterday was very quiet. Too quiet. After I finished the last three episodes of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer", I had no clue what to do. I was bored and didn't like it. I was sick of working on my sweater so I put it down for the rest of the day. I went for a walk, but that didn't help. I played some computer games, but that didn't help. I watched Josh Whedon's commentary on the last episode of Buffy, which did help fill in some blanks on what I was unsure of, so that helped, but not enough.

Today I met up with Mike & Craig for brunch & a jaunt to the National Gallery of Art. Brunch was very very yummy. We went to Beacon Bar & Grill, it used to be the 17th St Bar & Grill. I think I'm going to have my graduation happy hour there, I've just to decide on a date.

We then went and looked at some art. Unfortunately, it took us a half hour to find a parking place. The Mall is crazy busy because they're prepping for the Inaguration, so there's lots of fences and lost parking places. The NGA was pretty busy, but, for the most part, not unbearably so. Saw a lot of nice things, and some not so nice. We went to the Dan Flavin exhibit, which I totally did not understand. It was a bunch of coloured florencent lightbulbs. I don't get why he was such an influental artist. All I know is that it made my eyes hurt & give me a headache. We also went to the Gerard ter Borch exhibit which I really enjoyed.

Our inital reason for going was to see Palace and Mosque: Islamic Art from the Victoria and Albert Museam. It was absolutely stunning. I wish it wasn't as crowded as it was, it seemed like everyone who was at the museam was in that exhibit, because I could have spent a lot more time there than we did. I'm hoping to make it back before it closes on February 6th.

So, how was your weekend?

Much love to you all.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Insomina

All I want to do is sleep! Is that so much to ask for?

I had a quiet evening in, watching more Buffy, and catching up via phone with my friend Lori. While we were on the phone my window of opportunity to go to bed opened and closed. So now I'm up, wishing for sleep to come visit me. Oh to be in happy dreamland.

la la la la la laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa




Friday, January 07, 2005

Lentils

I love lentils.

I eat about 4 pounds of lentils a week. I know that's an insane amount of lentils. I'm guessing it's 4lbs because that's what it feels like after cooking the crap out of them.

I've had a ritual for the past 3 months where I'd buy a bag of dried lentils every weekend and make a HUGE pot of lentil soup on Sunday nights to eat for lunch during the week. Last night I made a small pot for lunch today & tomorrow.

I was in the lunch/conference room with my fellow troublemakers today and had made it through about half of my lentils and rice when I turned to Karen, and said, "I'm sick of lentils."

Which is not good, because I don't get paid until next week friday so I've no choice but to eat them for another week.
Potential

So, I was watching season seven of Buffy last night, my friend Matt let me borrow his DVDs, and it was the episode where Buffy and the gang is looking for the potential slayer that lives in Sunnydale.

Willow does a spell to find out where this young girl is. Anyways the ball of aura energy created by the spell goes through Dawn and hence everyone there, Willow, Xander, Anya and Dawn think Dawn's the new potential slayer. And in Buffy like fashion confusion ensues.

I'm sure you're wondering where I'm going with this, don't worry you're not alone.

Dawn freaks out & runs away, because that's what one does when faced with potential life changing challenges. When she was jumping out her bedroom window I think I said "Oh yeah like running away's going to solve this. Dumbass."

(Everytime she speaks I say outloud to the tv, "Shut UP, Dawn!")

Anyways, for the whole episode I'm hoping she gets killed, because I found her to be the most useless and annoying character of the show. But, alas, she doesn't, and she turns out not to be the potential slayer, but some other girl. Thank GOD! Because if she was a potential slayer I think I would have stopped watching it right there, cursing Josh Whedon for such a stoopid plot device.

At the end Xander gives her this great pep talk about knowing how hard it is to be in the shadow of everyone else, and just for a moment my heart went out to Dawn, it actually went out to Xander because it was the first time I'd ever seen him articulate his feelings so eloquently without a hint of his comic defense mechanism, but only for that moment, I still hope that she gets killed off, but I'm betting she doesn't.

Oh god, I need to lay off the caffeine...

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Alias

The season premiere of Alias was on last night. Boy did it suck ass. I used to love that show. And I used to love Jennifer Garner. And by love I mean I want to do bad bad yet oh so good things to her.

But my love for the show, and just a smidge for her, has gone away. It's gotten stoopid. I mean she still totally kicks bad guy ass, but the plot has become so forced and far fetched that I actually changed the channel while watching the show last night. And if you know how dedicated I was to the show when it first came out you would know that I didn't answer the phone unless it was Stacy & it was a commercial break & we would talk a mile a minute about what just happened then hang up on each other as soon as it came back on.

That sort of love for the show is gone. And I'm sad about it because it used to totally kick ass.


The Christmas Elephant

I'd like to wish all my Christian friends a happy Epiphany. Today is the day that the Christmas Elephant brought the 3 Wise Men to the baby Jesus & gave him wonderful gifts of gold, frankincense & myrrh.

"Christmas Elephant?" you're wondering. I know all these years you thought they came on camels, but nope, they came on an elephant. Don't be sad, you're not the only one who was mistaken, I had to correct my Mom on the issue when my cousin Sarah & I were making cut out cookies and she wanted to know why were making elephant cookies. She was suprised to find out that she had been wrong all these years.

So go out & celebrate the elephant, because without her there's no way the 3 Wise Men would have been able to do their thing.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Say No To Torture

From an email from MoveOn.org:

Dear friend,
I hate to start the New Year with bad news, but the Senate is about to consider Alberto Gonzales' nomination to become Attorney General, replacing John Ashcroft. Gonzales is the White House counsel notorious for opening the door to torture at Abu Ghraib and Guantanamo Bay prisons. Senators should view the Gonzales nomination very skeptically, given this radical history. As part of the upcoming hearings, we can call on Senators to ask Gonzales to unequivocally renounce torture as an instrument of American policy.

Join me in asking Gonzales and Senators to prohibit torture by clicking here:

http://www.moveon.org/gonzales/

Thanks.

Please sign the petition.
Update?

I really wish Blogger would update the posts in my my profile. I've written a bunch of posts since October, but if you were to read my profile you wouldn't know it.

meh.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Wegmans

Happiness is finding out that the BEST GROCERY STORE EVER is opening a store on February 13th and it's not too far from where I live. Unfortunately, I don't know if it will be metro accessible. At this point I don't care!!! Because I, along with my pseudo sister in law, & I will be there on opening day.

Only those of my readers from Rochester & Buffalo can completely understand how exciting this is.

Yes, I know I'm weird.
Long Over Due

Yes, I know I promised to resume normal posting sooner than today, but I didn't. I was sick yesterday, my uterus was trying to push its way out of my abdomen through my belly button. It was not pleasant, it felt like someone was cutting it with a hot knife.

I'm sure that's more information than you wanted, but too bad, that's how it felt.

I'm much better today.

I came back from my winter holiday with a huge stack of crap on my chair. I guess my mailbox was so overflowing my boss had to move it all to my office for me. Isn't he so nice? Now I'm swimming in paperwork that needs to be sorted, organized, and processed. Yippie!!!

I finally got my Stats grade, so I can now say with confidence that I've graduated. Do I care that I got a *C*?? Hell no!! I was worried I had failed the final, so I'm ESTATIC with the grade I got. My GPA is where I wanted it to be, so I'm content, but I'm not sure grad programs will be as content with it as I. But thinking about grad school is a topic for another day.

Like most people I'm still grappling with the tsunami that happened last week. I can't even begin to wrap my brain around it. My heart & thoughts go out to those who were affected by it. If you can help, the following organizations do wonderful work and can use any bit of assistence we can give.

The American Red Cross
Oxfam International
The International Federation of Red Cross & Red Crescent Societies
Medecins San Frontieres International

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Happy New Year!

I hope this year brings you much happiness and joy.

Regular posting will resume tomorrow.

Love & kisses to you all.